Aubade March 18, 2010
Posted by jasoncondie in Books, Edinburgh, Poems.Tags: aubade, dawn, philip larkin, poem, Poems, st vincents church, sunrise, sunset
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This sunset viewed from my living room window reminded me of my favourite Philip Larkin poem, Aubade. Which apparently means: A song or instrumental composition concerning, accompanying, or evoking daybreak.
I work all day, and get half-drunk at night.
Waking at four to soundless dark, I stare.
In time the curtain-edges will grow light.
Till then I see what’s really always there:
Unresting death, a whole day nearer now,
Making all thought impossible but how
And where and when I shall myself die.
Arid interrogation: yet the dread
Of dying, and being dead,
Flashes afresh to hold and horrify.
The mind blanks at the glare. Not in remorse
- The good not done, the love not given, time
Torn off unused – nor wretchedly because
An only life can take so long to climb
Clear of its wrong beginnings, and may never;
But at the total emptiness for ever,
The sure extinction that we travel to
And shall be lost in always. Not to be here,
Not to be anywhere,
And soon; nothing more terrible, nothing more true.
This is a special way of being afraid
No trick dispels. Religion used to try,
That vast, moth-eaten musical brocade
Created to pretend we never die,
And specious stuff that says No rational being
Can fear a thing it will not feel, not seeing
That this is what we fear – no sight, no sound,
No touch or taste or smell, nothing to think with,
Nothing to love or link with,
The anaesthetic from which none come round.
And so it stays just on the edge of vision,
A small, unfocused blur, a standing chill
That slows each impulse down to indecision.
Most things may never happen: this one will,
And realisation of it rages out
In furnace-fear when we are caught without
People or drink. Courage is no good:
It means not scaring others. Being brave
Lets no one off the grave.
Death is no different whined at than withstood.
Slowly light strengthens, and the room takes shape.
It stands plain as a wardrobe, what we know,
Have always known, know that we can’t escape,
Yet can’t accept. One side will have to go.
Meanwhile telephones crouch, getting ready to ring
In locked-up offices, and all the uncaring
Intricate rented world begins to rouse.
The sky is white as clay, with no sun.
Work has to be done.
Postmen like doctors go from house to house.
“Don’t just stare at it … EAT IT” March 4, 2010
Posted by jasoncondie in Books, Movies.Tags: american psycho, anonymity, Books, brett easton ellis, christian bale, ending, homogenous, killing spree, Movies, murder, superficial
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* CAUTION – SPOILER ALERT *
Books are always better than their movie counterparts. Clichéd but true, with the arguable exception of Fight Club. Brett Easton Ellis’ American Psycho is no different, managing even to overshadow a flawless realisation by Christian Bale. Patrick Bateman is a super-wealthy NYC investment banker whose misanthropic and psychopathic tendencies gradually escalate and bubble to the surface, yet acquaintances and society in general fail to acknowledge the gratuitous and obvious carnage.
Although the majority of the script has been extracted from the novel, the original text is far less accessible and comical than the movie. The sex scenes and murders are more complex, barbaric and graphic – the worst involving torture with a starved, feral rat. The film implies Bateman’s descent to homicidal insanity is relatively recent, triggered by his shallow and meaningless yuppie lifestyle, whereas the book documents a decade-long killing spree ongoing since Harvard.
Such a distinction may seem trivial but has inferences for the much-debated interpretation of the ending – was Bateman really a serial killer or did he imagine the whole violent episode?
My personal opinion is yes, he did kill all those people. Despite the extent and duration of his unchallenged rampage contradicting this and supporting the argument that Bateman is hallucinating, the alternative is more intriguing. The plot’s pivotal theme is identity or lack thereof. In such a superficial, homogenous era and environment, everybody looks like everybody else and is therefore interchangeable. Nobody knows themselves and thus nobody knows anybody else. Throughout the story characters misidentify one another, restaurants, even office buildings. The resultant anonymity means either the crimes cannot be pinned on Bateman as he is indistinguishable from his peers or simply his victims are equally indistinguishable and so go unmissed. I feel this stance is perfectly illustrated by the following poetic extract from both the book and movie:
“…there is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there. It is hard for me to make sense on any given level. Myself is fabricated, an aberration. I am a noncontingent human being. My personality is sketchy and unformed, my heartlessness goes deep and is persistent. My conscience, my pity, my hopes disappeared a long time ago (probably at Harvard) if they ever did exist. There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it, I have now surpassed. I still, though, hold on to one single bleak truth: no one is safe, nothing is redeemed. Yet I am blameless. Each model of human behavior must be assumed to have some validity. Is evil something you are? Or is it something you do? My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this—and I have countless times, in just about every act I’ve committed—and coming face-to-face with these truths, there is no catharsis. I gain no deeper knowledge about myself, no new understanding can be extracted from my telling. There has been no reason for me to tell you any of this. This confession has meant nothing….”
However the plot is deliberately ambiguous and open to interpretation. Per IMDB: In each scene with Detective Donald Kimble (Willem Defoe), writer/director Mary Harron asked Defoe to portray his character three different ways: 1) Kimble knew Patrick Bateman killed Paul Allen, 2) Kimble didn’t know Bateman killed Allen, and 3) Kimble wasn’t sure if Bateman killed Allen. Harron would then edit the takes together, giving the audience an unsure vibe of what Detective Kimble thought of Bateman.
The Gun Seller by Hugh Laurie February 12, 2010
Posted by jasoncondie in Books.Tags: Books, comedy, House, Hugh Laurie, satire, The Gun Seller
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“Written by the star of award-winning TV show House” the front cover proclaims. Relevant?
Actually, Laurie’s misanthropic yet lovable narrator is not altogether dissimilar to the tormented genius, Gregory House. Since the novel was written 8 years before the TV series aired, I wonder if there’s more to Laurie’s casting than talent or coincidence. At the very least, demonstrating such razor-sharp wit and dissection of the human condition in this novel, he must contribute to the show’s script.
Admittedly the book’s writing style is not immediately accessible. Laurie has wrapped a considerable volume of comedy and satire around an intricate plot, meaning punchlines crack at three sentence intervals. It’s like reading an Abrahams and Zucker script. The story’s a bit farfetched, but very entertaining nonetheless and pockmarked with worthwhile asides (like the extract I blogged about previously). Recommended.
Couplandism – Generation A January 5, 2010
Posted by jasoncondie in Books.Tags: bee extinction, coupland, douglas coupland, generation A, narrator
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Douglas Coupland’s Generation A recently raised an intriguing question: When reading, the narrator in your head is not you, so who is it?
After much deliberation I concluded that my narrator is a well-spoken, English woman akin to Jill Dando (too soon???). I’ve no idea what that implies….
Interesting observation aside, I was disappointed with Generation A. The short stories peppering the book were a joy but the overarching plot was unsatisfying and seemed an afterthought, irrespective of bee extinction being a hot potato right now.







